Tomorrow morning I'm flying to NYC to visit friends and surprise Bryan for his 30th birthday. I write this with complete confidence that I'm not giving anything away since he never reads this blog. I'm excited to go, especially since I've never been there before. And I can't wait to see Michael and Drew. But I'm so tired from juggling these three jobs that I can hardly work up the energy to pack and take care of all the crap I need to do before leaving way too early for human decency tomorrow morning.

Yesterday on the street I saw a woman feeding some pidgeons. Only, upon closer observation I realized that she was feeding them rice...uncooked rice. The kind that expands and makes birds' stomachs explode. Sad, ironic, or wickedly funny?

Also, the other day I was talking to a woman who had scattered her father's ashes in the ocean the day before. She mentioned that some of the ashes had gotten in her mouth. I thought that was kind of gross but also kind of cool.

I revealed to my boo today that I have developed a little "thing" for Tony Soprano. I think that revelation was a little too disturbing for either of us to think about too much. Why did I make this admission? I will surely not hear the end of it for some time.

In other news, Legal Aid called me and told me they want me back for 15 hours a week until June. I'm going to be coordinating their big annual fundraising luncheon. So that's exciting. I'm also interviewing tomorrow for a job at Bruno's place of work. Not very interested in the job...very interested in the salary though. However, I've discovered a job opening in Chiapas that I'm extremely interested in. Don't tell Bryan though, he'll kill me if I leave SF so soon.

So I haven't posted in awhile. I've been a little depressed about the whole job situation. I don't think this sustained level of stress over (how long has it been?) 8 months? can be good for me. But I'm trying to be patient, and even positive about it. I'm trying to enjoy the freedoms that unemployment can bring. Like spending all day Monday hiking at Mt. Tamalpais, or going jogging at Golden Gate Park in the middle of a Thursday... Still, stressing over whether there will be enough money for rent at the end of the month can bring you down, even on a gorgeous afternoon at the beach. In the meantime, I have been completely neglecting just about everyone I know. You know how it is...when you're depressed you just don't have anything to say. But I'm going to make a concerted effort to return all those lovely emails collecting dust in cyberspace, I promise.

However, I have a new obsession that promises, at least temporarily, to help me forget my woes. Instead, I now prefer to spend my days completely absorbed in an all-out marathon of The Sopranos . I'm so glad this little gem is such a recent discovery for me. For now I can breeze through the first four seasons on DVD without having to wait a week for the next installment. Oh Joy! It's I Claudius in New Jersey. Gotta love it. Anything to distract me from the job situation and how shitty the Mavs are playing.